Ok well here's a rant..

I need to rant, but this time it's not going to be a other people. This rant is all about myself because for once you all get to know why I can't stand myself sometimes. And seen as I like lists, this will of course be in the form of a list...

1. I'm a girl. I don't mean a girl as in the sex, I mean the way I act. I am a girl to the ultimate degree.
2. My emotions. I hate how emotional I can become over small things and how when it comes to big things I turn around and take it.
3. Weakness. I cannot stand up for myself. I am the biggest wuss ever. I can't do anything to make people stop.
4. The way I take shit from people. Everyone always expects me to smile when they say something to me that I don't like and most of the time that's exactly what I do.
5. Smiling. I understand that I really am I natually happy person, but people need to deal with the fact that I to have bad days and sometimes I don't want to smile. Sometimes there is nothing in my life worth smiling for.
6. Working. I need to learn what my limits are for working even though I need the money.
7. Shutting people out. I hate how I shut people out when I don't want to talk to them.
8. Dealing with problems. I hate how I hold everything in and when I finally deal with problems it ends up being the worst possible thing that could happen.
9. Not knowing what I want. I honestly have no idea what I want in life. That is why I come up with these lists to tell you what I look for.

I know it's only nine things, but all those points are what I hate about myself. I guess I could try and change it all, but here's the thing. When I change all of those things I know I'll be an entirely different person. I don't want to be different because if I was then I wouldn't be Danielle. I'd be someone everyone would have to get to know again. Also I hate change. I'm the kinda of person that would be happy to go back to before everyone decided to change and just be friends with everyone. Now I can't be friends with everyone because everyone is just too different. In like grade 2 everyone was the same and everyone got along. O well what can you do. But I feel much better now.

I'm outta here ladies and gents.